What does a mother of six really mean?
Letters could never together, form their strongest affiliation.
Creating any phrase worthy of expression.
To describe the love and admiration, it takes to raise one child.
Now let's think of six. Six different individuals, different sex, wide age span, different genetics, altogether six different people with tons of misplaced emotions. It's incredibly challenging and I have made so many intentional and unintentional mistakes. Being a parent requires 100 percent commitment, which is impossible when there is only one person present, creating the first phases of disadvantages to any child. Even if the mother is present 90 percent of the time, something has to and will fill that 10 percent void. I really had a hard time accepting my love language because it felt cold and absent, in its natural form, but it's my superpower, because I know immediately, when to turn over on my knees, the residue from the tears sow'n, is where I learned I could move mountains, when I love, its passion felt, when I love i feel depleted, in prayer is where I'm restored and my peace for those I love, is because I prayed for them! The anguish that I selfishly harbored at times, felt like betrayal, from those I loved, because when we love, we adopt each other's synergy, we travel down roads as companions, even though were aware of the consequences, but the hope for those we love, we go anyway, as if they need us, for some reason, and I believe even in that, we are filling voids selfishly. We cripple ourselves, doubting God. I love my children so much, similar to the love I only experience in Christ, so I gave them back to Him, so He can do for them what He did for me. He's the only one I could trust with them. Being a mother of SIX has taught me how to be a person, a mother, a friend, a daughter, a listener and most importantly, forgiveness. There are plenty of other things, but LOVE, that's what I gained confidence in loving, even though......
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